The old times…. (Part 5)

By zerofighter

it does nt take long for us to spot them playing basketball at one of the nearby blocks..

Fatty: Cheebye abt 9 of them or more…. look like they r from the street gang… we r outnumbered!

Me: So?! just attack them! still wait for fuck!
Fatty: di siong men shang!!!

We shouted our war cry and rushed towards them.. armed with baseball bats/ pocket knife/ small weapons !

They were obviously caught by this sudden outburst from us but they did nt take long to respond to our attack!!!

We fought like wild dogs that day even when we r outnumber of nearly 2 to 1…

Fatty: Go after that fucker with the black kangaroo shorts! he is the one who whacked sharon!!!

Those bastards too r very determined to win in the fight and the fierce fight lasted for quite a while till some passers by shouted mata mata.. the fight was soon dispered… with blue black all over our bodies!!! It is a messy fight!

Running together.. the 5 of us ran to the nearby park and collapsed at the bench…

Ah Keong: Fuck man this is a great fight!
Jason: Knn they can fight well..
Fatty: Any police behind?!
Me: Dun think so…
We looked at each other bruised face and laughed…

Scarface: at least no broken limbs for us…
Fatty: L.. u have a nasty cut on yr arms…
me: In return for yr scar… i point at his rite arm… this is what i owe u…
Fatty: Brothers dun mention abt owe each other.. I ( Zuo Siong di you jin sheng mei lai shi) Brothers r only fated to be together in this life only.
All 5 of us: Steady…

We normal stream students may be poor in our studies but we r willing to fight and bleed for each other. That is the Code of Honour we abide…

Deep in my heart.. i am worried abt how to acct to Yvonne for my bruised face and the gang fight….

Ah keong: Go hm must apply jie ta again…
Fatty: when we old.. we sure kena internal injuries…
Me: This is the road we choose.. have to bear with it ba…

This is my last gang fight.. though we did nt win in this fight but at least we managed to win back some face for fatty.. it is the pride which matter.. if we dun fight back… we r chickens.. This is what we firmly believed at that pt of time.

Soon i reach hm with my parents scolding me for getting involed in fights again…

Dad: Fight.. fight that is all u know… one day died on the streets then u know..
Mum: Aiya u gd for nothing… learn from yr sister.. gd in her studies and piano dun need to let us worry.. blah blah blah…

I just ignored their words and locked myself in the room… applying tie da myself.. thinking of how to acct to Yvonne abt this mess…

I remember that i did nt look forward going to school the next day… but i still decided to attend school as it is pontless to avoid the issue… During the assembly… Yvonne spotted my bruised face and arms…. She was shocked to c that… there seem to be many questions on her mind but we dun have to chance to tok to each other as we r a distance apart… ( Remember: We belong to different classes)… Recess Time will be only time when we can meet and tok… For the first time in my school life… i really dun look forward to recess Time as i really do nt how to account to her….

Recess Time: As usual she was waiting for me near to the drinks stall..

Yvonne: What happened to u?… have u been fighting again?…
Me: Nope i fall into the drain while cycling yesterday… ( I spoke in trembling tone)
Yvonne: Look straight into my eyes and tell me the truth…
Me: I….
Yvonne: U r nt speaking the truth… i know u too well.. u dun even dare to look straight into my eyes… R u involed with fights again?!….
Me: Yup…..
Yvonne: Have u forgotten yr promise to me?…
Me: Nope but at times it is very hard for me to make a decision which can please everyone…
Yvonne: Y.. i really dun understand… ( she is sobbing…)…. Thank Goodness we r near the garden pond toking whereby there is nt much people… if nt I will really be awkward then….

At that moment… the school bell ring…

Me: Meet u at the main gate after school k…
Yvonne: K….

With a heavy heart i headed back for lessons.. nt concentrating on the lessons at all… The sight of her sobbing keep flooding my mind… I feel very guilty abt hurting her again…. who knows the turmoil in my heart… Brotherly ties and promise to the loved ones.. I can only decide on one……

Soon the last lesson is over… and i have to face Yvonne.. She was waiting for me at the main time.. this time round without a smiling face…

Me: let find somewhere quiet to tok….
Yvonne: K then…

We then make the way towards her hm… Both of us are very quiet as we r deep in our thoughts… Soon we found a void deck whereby we have a gd tok..

Yvonne: Y did u break yr promise to me?… ( Her eyes r red and tears started to flow again…)
Me: Sorry.. i need to help fatty as he was attacked by a group of fuckers… He saved me b4… This is the renqing which i need to return… ( I then related the story to her how fatty sheild me from his attacks…)
Yvonne: At the expense of yr promise to me?….
Me: I am sorry….
Yvonne: I know u men always care abt yi qi ( Code of Honour) but can u spare a thought for my feelings before u do anything rash?!!!!
Me: I am really sorry… ( I am at a loss for words now)…
Yvonne: Do u know that i am always very worried abt u…. whenever got police case at sch… i will be fearful… thinking whether u r in any trouble…
( She is sobbing now)… I am tired……
Me: I will change de… pls give me some time.. i will quit gang…
Yvonne: What abt yr bad temper and yr recklessness?…
Me: I will….
Yvonne: I am tired… really… Give me some time to cool down… meanwhile.. pls promise me something k…
Me: K…
Yvonne: The next few weeks is exam period… pls promise me that u will focus hard on yr exams….
Me: I will study hard… dun worry abt me…

With that she headed off home without even allowing me to sent her hm…..

That day… i remembered is the worst day of my life… The sense of emptiness filled my heart… I feel a deep sense of urgency to quit the gang. Without thinking much.. i headed towards the zai dui… must tell Tou that i need to hang my clothes… Even if he want to whack me… i will agreed to it….

Fatty: R u K?… y u look so blur…
Me: Tell u later.. where is Tou?…
Fatty: dunno leh.. he was around just a while ago…
Me: Whalan fuck lah!…
Fatty: brother cool down.. whatever u want to tell tou.. u have to tok in a nice manner…
Me: Got it…

Tou soon arrived and i finally have a chance to tok to him though he was busy as there r some lao puay lang around that day…

I told him that i intended to leave the gang and he was tulan when he heard that especially he need men now to guard the zai dui…etc… I maintain my stand and refused to give in to his threats and even his so called promises.. that there will be no lack of women if i worked hard and rise swiftly in the ranks… Sensing my determination to leave.. as i really bo sim liao… He finally let me off after he have a tok with Fatty who is my Senior… But i have to go through the lift rule…. That is a must… A date was set for the lift ceremony…

Fatty: U have to leave now… i will meet u tonite…
Ah Keong: Brother take care of yrself… c u tonite…
Me: K… call me when u r done…

I then head home to study… To focus on my studies at this point of time is indeed very difficult for me as i am worried abt Yvonne… will she break off the break off the friendship with me… but the thought of my promise to study hard for exams seem to pushed me on.. giving me the strength to goes on…..

The old times…. (Part 4)

By zerofighter

Fatty: Have u ever considered the education status gap between the 2 of u?..
Me: Yup i have thought abt that.. this is one of the greatest concern.. that is y i have been avoiding her…
Ah Keong: True… next year is her O levels already.. knn we still doing our N level..
Me: That is y i have to start to focus on my studies liao…. next year pass the N levels and prepare myself for the O levels..
Fatty: By the time.. u finish yr fucking O level… she will be in junior college liao…
Me: She will always be one year ahead of me… and 2 years even if i managed to squeeze into poly or pre u…. and dun forget we have to serve our fucking NS.
Ah keong: knn.. then it will be at least 3 to 4 years slower than her…
Me: Yup that is rite…
Fatty: If she really love u she will nt mind all these de la!
Me: People will change… she may change after she went to college…
Fatty: and u still want to take the risk?…..
Me: Yes as she really did meant something to me… ( Actually what i really want to express is she really did meant alot to me..) but in front of my brothers… i feel paiseh to admit ba…
Ah Keong: Knn yr mind so rusty le… very hard to focus back to studies one lah…
Me: I have nt finish my maths hmwork yet…
Fatty: dun do lah.. may as well sleep…
Me: Cannot la again i promised her that i would finish my hmwork..
Ah Keong: Hahaha.. now u have her as yr personal tutor… u cant idle anymore… ( We all laughed together at this joke)

We tcss for a while more and upon finish their last fag… we headed off hm…

That nite.. i cant sleep well… thinking of the road ahead for me…
It is going to be difficult… having to abandon my vices and change for the better… but the thought of Yvonne warmed my heart and give me the strength to go on…

The next day.. Yvonne actually waited for me at the canteen during recess…

Me: Hi…
Yvonne: want to eat together…
Me: Nt very nice.. wait people gossip abt us how..
Yvonne: let them tok whatever they want
Me: k then..

Soon we were having our lunch together… i really enjoy it with her.. hoping that recess time will be longer than 20 mins..

Yvonne: what time did u reach hm yesterday..
Me: Abt 11pm ba…
Yvonne: So late… did u managed to finish yr hmwork…
Me: Nt really as i am struggling with the maths sums… never seem to know how to solve equations..
Yvonne: Let me help u then after sch if u did nt need to go to the coffeeshop..
Me: Nope i am nt going today..
Yvonne: gd boy… how abt snooker games…
Me: Nope…
Yvonne: how abt arcade games?..
Me: Nope…
Yvonne: So guai?.. k meet u at the school gate after sch then… She smiled..
I am glad that she is smiling…

The next few weeks i greatly cut down on going to zai dui and my other gaming activities… Yvonne is really a gd tutor.. very patient with me… Soon the whole school ( Upper sec) started to know my so called special relationship with her… we r nt a couple yet but we r very special friends… People start to gossip abt us.. especially those snobbish students from the science class…

Duno y Yvonne choose to hang out with that ah beng… normal arts stream student… also nt gd looking… even kena public caning last year for smoking… this kind of rubbish… ( Qian Tu Wu Liang) no brightness in future for him…

Words of gossip soon spread to my ears and i am worried when i know all these.. how would Yvonne view all these?.. can she take the pressure/stress of all these words…

Yvonne: Dun worry abt what others will say… i really dun mind..
Me: but it is so unfair to u…
Yvonne: So long as u will change for the better.. y bother abt all these?…I can bear with it… no problem..
Me: i promised u that i will focus on my final year exams.. will do my best to pass this time round..
Yvonne: Dun give yrself too much stress.. u can do it de…
Me: thanks for having such confidence in me…

Days were spent at the airport… wen xi gong ke ( Studying) with Yvonne. ( T1 or T2 that time have a study lounge.) Those days were really memorable… nt knowing that i will soon get in trouble again….

I still remember when i am at hm studying when i the phone rang…

Ring Ring…..

Me: Hello
Ah Keong: L.. r u free?.. we need help! Fatty got attacked by some bastards.. want to join us?.. ( Tiao Shui call).
Me: Where r u all?..
Ah Keong: At the usual place..
Me: K give me 20 mins.

Quickly i changed my clothes and rushed down to meet them… otw there.. i am struggling with myself.. shd i join them as i remember my promise to Yvonne.. dun get involed with fights already… But fatty saved me b4… my ever first gang fight… he got a cut on his rite arm while trying to shield me…
This is the renqing which i need to return …

Soon i reached the place…

Me: Wtf… (i take a look at fatty cdt.. blue black on his eyes… and raw cuts on his hands..)
Fatty: CCB!!!! tok to gf at her house void deck also can kena whacked…
Me: How many aganist u…
Fatty: 4 of them… cheebye… gf kena whacked too…
I then spotted his gf being comforted by her sisters… ( her face is brusied too)
Fatty: Girls they also whacked.. and they call themselves men!!!
Ah Keong: Tou said can only sent 2 men to us… ( They need more people to guard the zai duI)
Me: Knn damn humchee… cant he sent more men?!!
Fatty: r u joining us?
Me: Yes.. ( i spotted his scar on his rite arm.. nt forgetting that cut which he have shield me b4..
Fatty: What abt yr promise to Yvonee.. u told her that u would nt get into fights again..
Me: bobian.. between love and honour.. i choose honour…
Fatty: Swee lah!!

Our other two friends soon arrived.. and the 5 of us soon headed to the place where fatty got whacked… ( With jia huo ( Weapons in our bag).

The old times…. (Part 3)

By zerofighter

Yvonne: I am contented to know that u have feelings for me… That is all i need to know.. the rest is secondary…
I remain silent at this moment… a mix of different feelings is in my heart… should i take a step forward and hold her hand now… is it the rite time to begin a relationship with her… is it fair to her?… My heart is in a deep turmoil…

Me: Yvonne… I…. ( I Paused again nt knowing what is the correct words to use)
Yvonne: Pls tell me whatever that is going on in yr mind… K?…
Me: Give me some time to straighten my life… unless i can straighten things out and give u some assurance… it is best that we remain as friends…
Yvonne: I will wait for u.. meanwhile pls promise me something… dun get yrself in fights again k..
Me: I will try to control my temper…
Yvonne: Dun u go back on yr word…

With this statement.. i walked her hm.. using my sch bag to shelter her head from the rain….

Soon we reached her house void deck…

Yvonne: Thanks for the sch bag… u r all wet..
Me: nvm… me a man.. abit drenched no problem.. go hm must take a hot shower k…
Yvonne: Yes i will…
Me: btw is Stephen yr bf? ( i have been wanting to ask her this question and finally i plucked enough courage to ask her this question…)
Yvonne: Of course nt… he is nt my type… she smiled…
Me: wo ke yi fang xin le… ( I am rest assured now)…
Yvonne: Promise me one more thing can?…
Me: k… i will do my best…
Yvonne: Cut down on yr smoking… nt gd for yr health…
Me: K i will try… ( I have a weakness for cig… it have become part of my life… but for the sake of Yvonne… i will have to do my best to quit then…
Yvonne: Dun u ever go back on yr word…
Me: A promise is a promise….
Yvonne: call me after u reach hm..
Me: Roger.

I then sent her to the lift lobby… As i was heading to the bus stop.. suddenly she turned back and look at me…

Yvonne: Ni fang xing… i will nt meet steven again..
At that pt of time.. i cant hide my smile and was overjoyed at what she told me….

That day… i somehow feel different…

Still remember when i went to the zai dui that day… i did nt have much craving for cig..

Fatty: No money for a smoke is it?..
Me: No lah it is nt that…
Ah Keong: Na here is 0.20 cents u can buy a stick from the mama shop.. paiseh me damn poor today.. cant lent u much..
Me: it is nt the case… i really dun have much craving for cig today
Fatty: R u unwell? ( He put his hand on my forehead.. ) No fever wat…
Me: tell u guys later…

Thank Goodness Fatty and Ah Keong gf soon arrived and that i have some moments of peace as they r busy toking to their gf…

Me: Have to go hm already…
Fatty: What… so early…
Me: have to go hm for dinner..
Ah Keong; Dun tok cock… since when u have to go hm for dinner?..
Fatty: Hey something fishy going on…
Me: meet u at the void deck later.. call me when u r free…
Fatty and ah keong: They nod their head.

Me quickly head hm and called yvonne…

Me: i reach hm liao…
Yvonne: so early… Guai loh…
Me: did u catch a cold due to the rain…
Yvonne: nope i am k… Thanks.. Btw… Did u get involed with any fights today
Me: nope i remain low profile… Finish 2 cokes and go hm..
Yvonne: gd boy… She giggled…
I almost want to tell her i missed her but somehow i did nt tell her…

Me: later i need to go downstairs to meet fatty.
Yvonne: call me once u r hm..
Me: dun wait for my call if it is too late… Tmr still have sch..
Furthermore… It wun be nice to call u in the middle of the nite when yr family is sleeping

Yvonne:k.. Do take care of yrself
Me: roger.
We chat for a while more… And end the call.. With me promising her that i will
Do my hmwork.

In my era… We dun have hp yet and pagers is a luxury to own and i do nt own it yet…

Late in that nite…. I managed to meet up with fatty and ah keong…

I relate to them abt what happened… what i confessed to Yvonee… (of course nt too detailed as i dun want them to know the mushy parts…)…

Fatty: wha lau.. u shd have just grab her hand and jio her to be yr gf..
Ah Keong: Yeah lah.. u missed the chance…
Me: Siao.. u thought go to mama shop just grab cig and pay meh.. this is abt a relationship.. nt the rite time yet…
Ah Keong: Then what is the rite time… wait until New Year… Is it.. Whahaha..
Me: I have nt quitted gang and smoking…
Fatty: what is yr plans then?…
Me: I am thinking slowly to hang my clothes and eventually remove clothes.. ( Quit gang)..
Fatty: Hmnn… in that case… u have to reduce going to zai dui first… Tou will soon know y and will have a tok with u then…
Me: Hopefully he wun make things too difficult for me…
AH keong: Just tell him the truth.. that u need to study loh…
Fatty: Anyway the same gang rule applied… u have to go through the Lift Rule if u r going to quit the gang…
Ah Keong: R u prepared for that?
Me: Yes.. I am prepared to be whacked by u all…
Fatty: And once u r out of the gang.. whatever happened to u outside will nt be covered by the gang le…

There is a short pause after that…

Fatty: Brother.. that meants.. yr old enemies.. will take this chance to seek revenge on u…
Ah Keong: Wha lau.. that will be second round of whacking u have to take..
Me: i bet alan that bastard will be the first ones to whack me…
Fatty: That time.. we whacked him openly in front of his men…
Ah Keong: By Rite.. if he is out of the gang already.. they shd nt have touch him already…
Me: Dun forget they r chao kids… they dun reason with u one…
Fatty: R u really mentally prepared to face all these?
Me: for the sake of Yvonne.. i have to do that… 1 can be whacked but we cannot allow her to be hurt in any ways…
Fatty: The intial period will be difficult.. people will surely come to find u trouble.. but eventually things will settle down.
Me: Yup i agreed with u…
AH Keong: Aiya.. damn troublesome.. it is better to be with ah lian… can smoke and play together.. dun need to care abt all these…
Me: Yvoone is a decent girl… Btw guys.. pls dun leak out this news to the rest of the brothers… u two r my most trusted brothers…
Fatty: Wonder how the rest of the bros will think of this… Leaving the gang due to a girl… very malu de…
Me: Paiseh…
Fatty: But since u have already decided… as brothers we will support yr decesion.
AH Keong: Correct.
Me: No turning back once i make this choice.
Fatty: Want a smoke?…
Me: Nope.. do u have sweets instead?
Ah Keong: want to smoke rite… sweets only help abit at first…
Me: Feel funny without cig…
Fatty: U really want to quit smoking…
Me: I already promise Yvonne to cut down on smoking..
Fatty: Cut down nt quit mah..
Ah Keong: Just smoke abit lah…

I looked at the cig.. really tempted to take one… It have been more than half a day since my last fag…

Me: no lah.. she would be happy to c me quit.
Ah keong: u can still smoke secretly even u went out with her.. just eat sweets to cover yr breath…
Fatty: Cheebye zhiping used to do that but his gf still smell out from his clothes… girls damn sharp one k…
Me: Dun one lah.. damn no pride to do that… Since i have already promised her already.. i must honour my word.
Fatty: On lah we support u…
Ah Keong: U have to avoid going to mama shop liao…
Me: Yup my 0.20 cents cig and the lighter which hang at the mama shop…

The old times…. (Part 2)

By zerofighter

Words was spread around to us to come to zai dui earlier as we may be expecting trouble from another gang… This do nt sound nice to us as Yvonne would sometimes pop up at this coffeeshop to tok to me.. mainly to tell me to go hm early… the same stuff… Better think of ways to get rid of her first… This coffeeshop is too messy…. nt safe for her to be here…

Meanwhile Fatty soon arrived with his new ah lian gf and her sisters… All quite chio… Of course brothers soon get excited once they set their eyes on them…
Soon they were busy flirting with them and try to show off their manly character by toking and swearing loudly…

Fatty: Michelle… u sit beside my brother… he very steady one.. no gf one..
Soon i have Michelle sitting beside me…
Michelle: Heard that u dun have gf… zhen de ma?
Me: zhen de la! bluff u for what?..
Michelle: u so green meh…
Me: i very innocent one k…. i then give her a blur blur look…
Michelle: Innocent… like real.. she then laughed…
I cast a quick look around.. Yvonne is still around…
Me: want to smoke or not… I offered michelle a cig and even helped her to lighted up a cig…
Michelle: Baby.. come share the cig with me… she then feed me with her cig…
Me: thanks.. u r so nice…

That is the last straw… i c Yvonne stalking off in anger with her sis…
Fatty cast a surprised look at me while he witness the whole scene… he seem to have some questions to ask me but thank goodness he spotted my serious face and remain silent…

Thank goodness the tactic worked…

Time dragged and finally Michelle left with her friends…

Fatty: bro wait for me at yr void deck.. i need to tok to u…
Me: k…
We then left the zai dui as fatty need to sent her gf home…
Taking a puff outside.. i then head slowly to the void deck…

At my fourth fag… fatty soon arrived…

Fatty: y do u flirt so openly with Michelle just now…
Me: u r my brother.. surely u know the ans rite..
Fatty: Hmmn.. if my guess is rite.. u purposely do that to spike Yvonne off.. correct bo?..
Me: Correct.. u r really my brother… can know my thoughts so well…
Fatty: but y exactly do u do that?.. he shake his head…

I then take a deep puff…

Me: There may be gang fights again soon in our coffeeshop and i want her to be safe…
Fatty: u may lost yr friendship with her…
Me: Better lost it then let anything happen to her… next year is her O levels.. let her focus on her exams.. it have always been her dream to enter her ideal JC…
Fatty: Quite true.. anyway she is a top student…
Me: Whereas i am just a ah beng… and a normal stream art student…( sadly.. i smoked again..)

Soon we end the topic and start to tcss again.. swearing again…

As a matter of fact.. i did have feelings for Yvonne for but all the while i am keeping a distance from her ever since i dropped to normal stream and started my ah beng ways.. she deserved a better bf… someone whom can really take care of her and give her a sense of security….

After that day.. I seldom c Yvonne already for the next few weeks… She never appeared at the coffeeshop nor snooker saloon anymore…. nobody bug me to go home earlier… Meanwhile life still goes on for me… hanging out at zai dui.. arcade games and playing snooker with my brothers and at times involed with some silly street fights…

Fatty: I heard that steven is trying to sian Yvonne after he dumped Huirong..
Me: Serious?.. he is a super play boy… he have have quite a few gf liao..
Fatty: Cheebye he scholar leh… can study one and somemore know how to sian girls… he sure play play with Yvonne de..
Me: Yup u r rite.. this fucker cannot be trusted…
Ah Keong: Let teach him a lesson… whack him after sch…
Me: Nope that will only provoke his interests on Yvonne more… let me think of a way…

The news of stephen trying to sian Yvonne really put me off… i am getting worried as i know that Stephen is really a ladykiller in the sch… Nt much girls can escape from his sweet tok… I was even more worried when i witness him walking her home on that fucking raining day…

Me: Cheebye i have to do something abt it… cannot keep quiet and pretend everything is fine!!!!…. ( I thought to myself as i saw Yvonne almost walking off with him!!!) Quickly i rushed to the main gate and shouted!

Me: Yvonne… wait for me!
Yvonne: k…. What is up?(She was abit surprised when she looked at me)
Me: I need to tok to u alone..
Yvonne: U go hm first… i will call u later.
Stephen: But it is raining now… u need an umbrella.
Yvonne: It is k.. i will be all rite.
Stephen: K then.
That fucker stephen lan lan finally leave with a super black face!

Quickly we walked to the nearby void deck whereby we can have a tok…

Me: Y r u with him?!.. Dun u know he is a super playbloy.
Yvonne: If u can have gf… y cant i have a bf… at least he treat me well..
Me: Since when i have a gf?…
Yvonne: That girl at that coffeeshop… a few weeks ago… the two of u r even sharing a cig! ( She was angry when she mentioned abt this)
Me: Zhen de.. she is nt my gf
Yvonne: Serious?…
Me: I may seem bo chup abt many things but i dun fool around with relationships.. u shd know me well by now.. ( i look tenderly in her eyes)

There is a long pause after this statement…

Yvonne: But do u know that i was damn pissed when i saw u doing that…
Me: I know… but i have to do that… bobian….
Yvonne: Y… i dun understand..
Me: Do u know that coffeeshop u went is filled with gangsters.. At times there would be gang fights…
Yvonne: SO?..
Me: i dun want u to be there… i dun want u to be hurt during gang fights…
it is dangerous to be there…
Yvonne: If u dun want me to get hurt.. y dun u just leave the gang and lead a normal lifestyle..

She is crying bitterly now…

Me: I cant just leave like that de..
Yvonne: then what abt us…
Me: Yvonne… u r different.. u r a top student.. next year is O level… a important year for u.. u can go yr ideal Jc if u do well and even go to UNI..
Yvonne: So?!!! she always said so whenever she is upset….
Me: Have u ever consider that i am one year slower than u… I am nt even confident in my N level… nt to say abt O Levels… we will drift even further…

That is my true confession to her.. these months of feelings bottled deep in my heart…

Yvonne: I dun care.. just ans me this question truthfully…
Me: K…
Yvonne: Have u got any feelings for me?
Me: YES… if not i will nt have care so much abt these.. how u feel… people will change.. if u leave this school and begin yr college days.. yr feelings and mindset will change de… it is just a matter of time.
Yvonne: is that really how u feel?…

Again there is a pause while it is still raining cats and dogs outside…

The old times…. (Part 1)

By zerofighter

Fatty: Any plans after sch today..

Me: Bo leh… damn sian loh…
Fatty: Hey later i will jio ah keong they all for snooker want to join us…
Me: On lah..

The last lesson.. maths is damn boring… cant wait for it to be over.. Finally the bell ring… and soon i was at balestier point with my brothers playing snooker.

Me: Knn!! Fatty u damn tai ko today leh… this kind of ball also can go in…
Fatty: Brother.. this is not tai ko.. this is called skills leh!
Me: KNS!
Fatty: watch out.. yr girlfriend here already!
Me: Wah lau she is not my girlfriend.. she science student leh!

Yvonne walked over to us… angry as usual…

Yvonne: What r u doing here.. Do go home early for studies.. exams coming soon..
Me: Where got time.. cant u c that i am in the middle of the game?
Yvonne: U dun want to go home rite… fine.. i will sit here then…
Me: Wha lau pls come down lah… u sit on the snooker table… how can we play snooker here… ( All my brothers all laughing away)
Yvonne: So will u go hm then?
Me: K lah lah..

Me: Fatty.. paiseh.. have to make a move first…
Fatty: Nvm…

Me: next time.. dun do it again.. very malu for me…
Yvonne: if u dun want me to do it again. then pls study hard lah..
Me: What is the fucking point.. ever since i dropped to normal stream.. i really
bosim study already…
Yvonne: U cant go on forever…
Me: aiya dun bother me lah.. anyway.. u r a gd student.. dun come here anymore k.. here alot of gang fights de…

Bros btw this story happened during my secondary days which is over 20 years now… names have been changed… pls pardon my poor english…

Yvonne: then u still come…
Me: i am different mah.. all my brothers here… if anything happen i can help mah…. anyway u go hm lah… u r a science student must spent more time on studies…

I then walked her to the bus stop… once done… i headed back to balestier point to look for my brothers…

Ah Keong: how come u r back so early.. i thought u went hm already.
Me: Cheebye i have nt finish my games…
Fatty: Where is yvonne?
Me: I walked her to the bus stop… nt gd for her to stay here for too long.. nt safe.. wait gang fight how?
Fatty: She like u is it?
Me: Siao she is a science student leh.. i am just a ah beng… ah.. dun tok abt this lah.. i go outside for a smoke first…

I went outside for a smoke..

Memories of the past seem to flood me again….

Yvonne: Y u so quiet de… nt used to mixed school eh..
Me: Yes maybe.. cos i came from a boy school…
Yvonne: no wonder lah…

Yvonne seem to the only girl i knew in the class… as she sat just beside me.
Soon i feel at ease with her as she is always very friendly and cheerful though at times i still feel shy while toking to her…

Whereas i can make friends easily with boys then as i am from boy school mah…

There is once when we were heading to the canteen with yvonne when there is upper sec ah beng tried to be funny with her…

Bully: this girl quite swee leh.. fresh stock!
Yvonne: Put yr hands off me… as the bully actually touched her hair from behind!!!
Me: what r u trying to do! i pushed him back!
Bully: Knn! ccb! he then kicked me in my face… Be careful before u mess around with me next time!!!

Yvonne: r u k?
Me: yup i am fine..

From then on.. my friendship with yvonne deepen….

However when it come to studies.. i am nt good as i am pretty lazy…
Being a neighbour school… there is only 2 express classes in the school. I was in the express stream but i did nt put in much efforts in my studies. Instead i would always fool around in the class playing paper bullets… or even fighting at times… detention classes to me is a norm…

On the other hand.. Yvonne is different.. she is quite good in her studies.
Thus she did well on the sec 2 exams and was promoted to sec 3 science stream.

Due to my laziness… i failed my sec 2 and was dropped to normal arts stream in sec 3.. what a fucking disgrace to me!!!!

I then drifted slowly from my former friends/classmates as they have progressed much faster compared to me…

Almost half of my sec 3 class boys are in gangs… 24 or 18…
Soon i found myself joining gangs too as it seem to he the in thing to do at school…

Fatty: cheebye u smoke so long…
Me: paiseh.. thinking of something…
Fatty: Think of yvonne rite..
Me: siao…
Fatty: we going to coffeeshop later… tou want to meet us later.
Me: K…

We were in the sitting at the coffeeshop.. tcss again when suddenly i spotted Yvonne heading towards me again..

Me: Oh no!!! She is together with her sis for dinner… i thought to myself.. this time really jialat!

Yvonne: I thought u went hm already…

Ah Keong: His Ke Xin is here! Whahhaha!

Me: I am quite speechless though i never expect to bum her here… cant think of any last mintue excuses….

Yvonne: I need to tok to u..
Me: K…

She pulled me to the corner..

Yvonne: When will u leave the gang?
Me: Siao! u think take off clothes so easy lah.. this is nt a supermarket.. can leave and go as we pleased..
Yvonne: I dun want to c being chopped one day…
Me: I know i know….
Yvonne: exams coming soon u still play around….
Me: Aiya chicken feet… here sec 3 is what we study last year…can pass one lah.. dun worry…
Yvonne: dun be over confident…
Me: Aiya u go hm first..
Yvonne: Me will go hm after dinner… and 4 goodness sake.. dun smoke k…
Me: C how first lah…

Back to my brothers.. Soon ah keong and fatty gf r here and they r showing off again…

Seng: Ah keong.. swee lah.. yr gf very pretty leh..
Ah Keong: Next round i will intro my gf friends to u.. steady bo…
Seng.. steady…
Fatty: Knn.. wait u c my ah lian friend.. they will make u nose bleed lah…
Jason: Really or nt?
Fatty: dun believe… c for yrself lah!

Most of the brothers at this pt become more excited liao as they really to jio some chio ah lians later…

My colleague last day (Part 31)

By andthenhor

dragging myself from bed… i do my usual morning routine.. hating to accept that today might be the last time i will see ling in office…

no smile. no anything…. i kiss my wife goodbye as i go work…. she’s having bad headache and thus gotta take mc…

i reach office early, but hey, ling is earlier then me…

i saw her table mostly cleared…. she got 2 paperbag which i saw gift inside…

focing a weak smile…

me: wa… got preasent for me ahh?

ling: got…. of coz…

me: so sweet ahh….

ling: special one somemore ok…

soon, col start to come in…

she give out identical size present to everyone….

then finally she give me a different looking present…

ling: na… a special one for u….

she smile n walk back to her desk…

i took it and it’s kind of heavy…

feel like a block of brick…

me: orrhhh. … thanks…

eric: wa… got special one de wor…

aunty sue: of coz la… u know aaron treat her how good or not…

ling just smile and lean back on her chair where she start penning a good bye email to everyone… all the usual and stuff… ..

email:

me: am i suppose to open my present now?

ling: open in ur car when u going home ok….

me: ok…. any last word for me?

ling: nope… take care and treasure ur family ba…

me: u too k…. hope u made the right decision, and always stay happy!!

i continue doing my paperwork… very un focus…

i have this very sour feeling in my heart…. looking at her sitting on her desk without emotions, i just could not bring myself to accept that ling can just let go… But come on aaron, wad could she do??

cry?? dun be stupid…

i need to go le… the tension made me unable to stay any longer…

i take my bag, i walk to ling desk…

she was abit taken back by surprise…

me: ling, i got to go for appointment le… u take care k…. all the best in ur future…

she look up… “orrhhh… thanks….”

i lifted my hand to offer a light handshake…

she reluctantly lifted her hand hand shake mine, it feel cold and soft… how i will miss her little hand…

shaked her hand, smile and i turn and leave the office…. the next time i step in, she wun be around le… it will be a different office altogether…

when i reach the car… i took out the present and slowly unwrap it, keep wondering wad it was with each side unwrapped. …

it was hard… feel like a stone…

it’s a crystal block… ….

ling actually took one of our group photo and engrave in into a crystal….

the photo look kind of blur in black and white inside this crystal. but it’s enough to see who is who in the photo.

me and ling were side by side…. smile our best in this group photo…

i view through the crystal and saw a white piece of note below…

“dear aaron… if only i could freeze the time…. but since i can’t, i freeze the memory in this crystal…. forget me not….

love, ling”

i feel a tears tickle down my cheek…. i wipe it away…. and as i took in the fact that i might no longer see her again, more tear roll down…

at the same time, aunty sue call me….

i use both my hand to wipe away my tears…. cough abit…

me: hello?

aunty sue was wisphering…

sue: aaron.. wad u say to ling? she’s crying badly now at her desk leh….

me: huh? i dunno leh….. how is she….

sue: duno leh, she cry until poor thing…

me: nvm la… let her cry awhile lo,… will stop de…

not that i can do anything, going back to office will only make thing worse, and will let everyone know that we have fallen in love…

i read the note again….. send ling an sms and i drive out of the carpark….

ring ring, ring ring….

wife

me: hello?

wife: dear…. i’m positive leh!!

Tears of joy i guess…..

The END

My colleague last day (Part 30)

By andthenhor

the whole night i was thinking about jeslyn… about so near yet so far….
in the end i figure out that family should always come first.
and affair is just for the extra spice you need in life.

following morn i reach office as usual. but the feeling is i have given up on jeslyn. at least she still kiss me on the cheek telling me we are frens.

ling came in not long after me…
“morning aaron” she said with a smile.
me: hi, morn…

she then go to her seat, seems like she in a good mood today.
email*
me: today so good mood?
ling: aiya, last two days le. just be happy lo. dun like see u so sad also…
me: ahh. now then u know u made me sad.
ling: i dunno, but see ur face like see justice bao.
me: tat bad meh? u la… must be cause by u de…
ling: bleh… dun say i no good. today i take half day leave. accp u…. u want? tomorrow i last day le… cannot take leave also..
me: so good… wad’s up your sleeve?
ling: take it or leave it lo…

the next 3 hours was like torture, i keep doing my paperwork, but time seems to have stop. not moving anymore…

ling was wearing a casual dress, with a thick belt at the waist…
the tighten of the belt presented her boobs in the most flatering way…
12pm
sms*
me: btw, where u wanna go?
ling: huh…. i tot u will plan?
me: ok lo… anywhere ok for u?
ling: sld be ba, as long not hotel lo…
me: ohh… that’s where i tot i want to bring u to…
ling: ah bish… might as well come my house…
me: dun want…. i dun like looking at your wedding photos. make me jealous only…
ling: jealous? serious ahh…
me: wait for me in the carpark ba…

finally, 1230 le…
i go to my car, on the engine, and wait for her, within minutes, she come, hop into my car. and i start driving…
me: ehh.. women change is really 180degree one hor..
ling: aiya, i really dun want see u sad lo…
me: it’s u ownself also want me lo..
ling: rubbish…
me: ehh. can give me a kiss?
ling: for wad?

me: i read somewhere on internet… kiss on cheek is for friends, kiss on hand is adore, kiss on lips is love, on ears is wanna have fun, on nose is to get stupid, on neck is wanting that person.

she keep quiet, sitting there thinking abit as i exit the carpark… when i reach the main road, i ask her if she think finish already….
she put her hand on the back of my neck… pull me slightly over, she lean abit forward and bury her head in my neck and give my neck a kiss…

me: that’s wanting me leh…
ling: cannot ahh… i very greedy de…
me: can…. (as my hand move over to hold her hand) so where should we go since u want me?
ling: u decide lo…. someplace quiet, someplace where i can relax, no stress…
me: i say le… hotel hor… most privacy… most relax…
ling: aiya, u want that one say so lo… keep calling me go hotel…
me: ya la ya la…. i want la… u dun want meh?
ling: u very long nv do le izzit…?
me: yap… last time also with u…
me: erm… u?
ling: last time with u too….

i’m still driving… driving to nowhere… driving to no location…
i lean over her side…
me: u dun feel like it meh? no needs?
ling: dunno….
me: honest…
ling: maybe lo…
me: not honest enough…
ling: ya la…. dun make me high la…
me: i talk only leh… i nv even touch u… but ling, i really want leh… i nv do with my wife coz i waiting for u…
ling: haiz…. like tat i no choice lo…
me: so?
ling: choose one that is quiet, not alot of ppl and got privacy one…
me: need condom?
ling: up to u lo…
me: aiya, no need lo…
ling: i dunno har… my period will be here anytime…

i go and ta bao burger king… and start driving to koven…
our hand holding tight to each other, as if we are afraid we might lose each other anytime.

i carry the burgerking paperbag and the smell of our fries and burger fill up the whole lobby of the hotel… i try to make it fast, get a bigger room for 4 hour…
then we hurried into the lift in case meet someone we know…

lucky not alot of ppl, we are both alone in the lift, going to the 4th storey…

i pull her towards me… kiss her on the lips… she refuse to engage… and soon we reach the 4th storey…
i find the room, fast fast open as she follow in behine…

i just cannot get over the feeling of opening a hotel room, everytime when u enter a hotel room, the smell of sex is just so strong…

i survey the room, wow… really good…,.
big and spacious…

we sit down have our lunch on the bed…. i was peeping her ZG like no one business…
then i proceed to brush my teeth, and she follows…

i then lie on the bed… hands behine my head…
me: tot u say u want me…
ling: dun want le, i want to sleep….
me: u dare…..
as i go over and hug her from behine….
hand moving up to cup her breast…
ling: dun want dun want, i want sleep….
me: haiz… last 2nd day le also want treat me like that…

ling: ok la, ok la…. do wad u want… haha…
me: it’s u want me wor… not i want u… sld be u do wad u want…

we both kneel down on the bed…
facing each other… she begin unbuttoning me… and i unbuckle her belt and throw it one side…
then i lifted up her dress…. showing her black lacy panty, lift up somemore to reveal her flat tummy…
and up somemore to reveal her matching black bra… and she lifted her hand to allow me to slip her dress out…

in no time we are in our underwear….
will not go into details wad happen next….
i have some of the most enjoyable sex with ling yet.. no time pressure. no worries of getting caught…

i lick her and she come big time… and i was being blow like how a king should recieve his…

we got into 69…. and she give me a full body to body back massage…. using her very erected nipple to good use tickleing the whole of my back….
all the way down to my ass crack before pressing her breast on my back and move all the way up…

we have sex and tried all position and i finially come all over her body…. we ended up in the bathtub and had a 2ndround on the bed again…
knowing we just bath in the bathtub, i finger and lick her at the same time….
she give out moans so loud i’m sure ppl can hear it two blocks away…
when she shiver and come , i refuse to stop…. i want her to enjoy the good feeling of oral sex….

and finally we ended up lying under the blanket. hugging each other with my sperm all over her vagina area…

me: i’ll miss u de leh… how?
ling: no choice lo… enjoy me now lo…
me: wun u miss me?
ling: i will of couse. but also like tat… u married le… i dun wanna break up ur family u know,..
me: if i not married?
ling: dun talk about if la… just enjoy k… *and she give me a deep kiss to silence me…

we kiss and my hand went all over her naked smooth body again….
but i fail to come for the 3rd time…
in my mind, i keep telling myself… “please dun forget how this beauty look like when naked, the next time might be far far away….

me: so u decide ur future le ma?
ling: with my hubby? i wun tell u… dun get affected by my decision, i’m just a passer by in your life, after tomorrow i will be passed by le…
me: haha… u so cruel leh…
she give me a kiss again, as if treasuring all the time we have…

in no time, the room is up…. i LL, really LL have to fetch her back….
ling: tomorrow u will be in office right?
me: yap, i will….
ling: cya tomorrow…

ande she alight… i began my lonely drive home yet again….

My colleague last day (Part 29)

By andthenhor

as the cable car leave the station, i put my hand over her shoulder… pulling her closer, she lie on my shoulder telling me she’s comfortable..
me: u really happy today?
jeslyn: yap… really happy.
me: not gonna reward me with a kiss?
after all my sianing, giving flower, giving bears, giving pendent, going villa bali, going zoo. going altivo, taking cable car. taking photos. car ride. all my stupid joke… am i still gonna fail?

jeslyn: on ur cheek?
me: up to u…. but before u kiss…. ok…. put it this way, i read somewhere on internet… kiss on cheek is for friends, kiss on hand is adore, kiss on lips is love, on ears is wanna have fun, on nose is to get stupid, on neck is wanting that person.
so u decide carefully where u wanna kiss… if not i might get the wrong meanign…

i turn to face her… close my eye, and wait for the kiss…
we are 2 minutes into the ride….
now over harbourfront…

i feel her breathing coming closer to me, and she plant a dry kiss on my lips…
i feel shock, i tot she’s gonna kiss me on my cheek…. she sit back and look out…
lips is for…. i try to recall… it’s for love…

things are running through my head….
lip lips…. love… love…
since she love me… does it means go ahead…

i put my arm over her shoulder…
me: erm…. lips is….
i turn her head over to face me gentlly, and return her a kiss on her lips….
i refuse to retreat… and i have my the otherhand over her waist…

me: romantic right… kissing in the air…
jeslyn: nope, with u not romantic…
me: lie… i press my nose on her nose…
jeslyn: really, with u not romantic…
i pull her closer and kiss her on the lips again, i feel her lips parting, giving me the go ahead to insert my tounge…

i slowly lick her lips. and then her teeth, then being my romantic tounge fight with her….
i could feel her hand around my waist… and our embrace become tighter…

i tried my luck by moving up my hand abit…
then i feel the lenght of her bare smooth arm…..AS the kiss get more passionate, i tried to slid my hand to the front and feeling the outside of her breast. she did not resist…. but only react by kissing me more passionate…
i feel on her soft breast…. and move my hand down again and go to her back….
i did not even realise where we were now…
over the sea?

from behind, i move into her singlet… and feeling the whole of her bare back…. running my hand across her bra strap at the back….
then inside her singlet, i move my hand to her underarms again and move to the front touching her breast in her singlet but outside the bra…

i was feeling her skin on top of the bra… part of her breast too…
and as i try to slip a finger into her bra, she stop me…
jeslyn: dun want…
me: why?
jeslyn: dun want… too soon….
me: where got different…
jeslyn: not prepared….
i respect her and move my hand back to her bare back and feel all the way up to her neck as our kiss resume…

we continue frencing and i continue feeling her bare back occasionally moving to her front outside her bra….

time seems to pass so fast, and we arrive at sentosa, breaking our kiss, we alight…

as we walk abit of sentosa island…
me: why stop me earlier?
jeslyn: dunno….
me: later on the way back can dun stop me…
jeslyn: dunno….

jeslyn: u la…… y u make me “lips” u?
me: huh? lips me?
jeslyn: u say lips equal?
me: love
jeslyn: ya la…
me: since is love, then u should not stop me ma…
jeslyn: dunno….. let go back la… late le,. and i tired….
me: dun stop me k….
then i kiss her on the lips, and we being walking back to the station for the trip back.

we slowly walk the 50 meter or so back to the cable car…
holding on to each other hand.
i dunno why, after the trip to sentosa, i find her beauty grow by so much. she is now shy, sweet and soft spoken.
for me, again my brain is turning and turning.i feel so sex deprise. can i please just fuck this 21 yr old beauty on the spot…

me: why so quiet sunddenly?
jeslyn: dunno. can we dun…
me: shun qi zhi ran lo… such thing say beforehand also no use de..
jeslyn: u will only make me fall in love with u more lo. dun want can.
me: okok…
*in my mind i cannot think of such thing, i only want her…
it’s almost 9pm….
i check my phone.
no sms, no call…

ling really angry?

soon, we reach the cable car…
i hold her hand and our return trip begin…
i put my hand over her shoulder.

*sounding very serious… me: see, that’s where we come from… *pointing to the front
jeslyn:*laugh “of coz i know la.. haha, that’s a very unneccessary comment lo… ah bish…
me: scare u dun know ma…
jeslyn: ya, thanks for teling me… and that’s where we are heading to right?
me: clever gal…. can i kiss my clever gal?

she keep quiet

i turn her head towards me…. i i turn mine to meet her mouth… i hug her close and feel her breast pressing against my chest.. it’s so soft, like 2 erotic cushion pressing against my body….
me: dear, hug me…
she wrap her arms around my neck and back and i again smell her womenly nice smell…
i then kiss her ears, and lick her ear loop follow by the back of her ear..

jeslyn: hmmmm….
i move to the other ear and lick the ear loop then the inside of her ears… breathing abit heavier into her ear…
jeslyn: ahhh……ggggg…..hmmmmm….
then i move to her mouth and start to lick her lips and she responde by pushing her tounge into my mouth….

i then move my hand again under her arms to the front…. she retreat abit to create a space between our body so i can have access to her breast…

then i feel her hand coming toward my hand which is on her breast..
she is holding on to my hand and squeezing her breast..

me: u enjoyit?
jeslyn: ya….
i then move my hand down and up again into her white singlet…
as i move up, i move up beyond her bra and release one side of her bra strap… pulling it off her shoulder…

then i pull down her bra cup and start fondleing her breast… her soft and small nipple between my finger…
i expertly fine tune her nipple…
and her breast is so nice to the touch..

i pull her bra lower so i can have a full feel of her full breast…
then i move my head to her ear again, licking hard on her ears and blowing some hot air into it..

jeslyn responde by giving some soft and hot moan….

my the other hand guide her hand to my 2ic… which is fucking hard by now… ready to fuck…
she touch it from the outside of my bermudas…

and i’m fondling her breast in her singlet with her bra pull down slightly..
soon, we saw the cable car approaching the station… i remove my hand…. and she pull up her bra strap and adjust the cup from outside her singlet…

she look away…
me: why?
jeslyn: nothing….
me: angry?
jeslyn: no… dun ask…. i dunno…. it happen so fast, i dunno what’s going on….

when the cable car reach the station, she hurrily alight and walk down the stair leaving me trailing behine…. the attendent at the station give me a “wad happen” look. and i give him a shurg of my shoulder before i hurrily catch up with her…

i grab her arms from behine…
me: wad happen?
jeslyn: nothing really… can i go back?i think everything happen too fast….
me: ok…

i then drive her home, never hold her hand, never talk…. just keep quiet and enjoy the cold wind as i open the window to break any silence in the car…

*not all gals can accept married guys. but no one can resist love…
to get jeslyn to bed will require alot of effort and had i been single, we would have proceed weeks ago…
but because of my statues. i guess this is not for me…

the taste of failure stay in my mouth till today, not being able to taste the forbidden fruit, not being able to have her still is one of my today biggest regret…
ppl always say see no touch…. but i manage to touch, but no see…
how pain is that…..

when i reach her place…
jeslyn: thanks aaron for today and sorry for just now….
me: no worries… did you enjoy urself?
jeslyn: yap…. do send me the photos if u are free…
me: so u going up now?
jeslyn: ya…. feel so tired….
me: ok….. must rest early k…
jeslyn: erm… can i give u a kiss…. ?
i kept quiet…

and she lean forward to give me a kiss on my cheek…..
cheek… = friends,…. i got it…. i understand….
me: thanks…
i kiss her back on the cheek…. and she alight…

i then put on R gear and drive home…

*i guess i should not carry on trying to get her… i’m married and is not practical to be involve in affair that require too much courting…..

we remain friends till today… sms, call, and quick lunch when i’m around her work area for appointment….
it’s amazing how we can be frens after the cable car episode….
—————————————————————————————

when i reach home, it’s about 10pm….
i log into my msn…..
* u recieve a message while u are offline…
ling: dunno…. few more days…. just endure lo…. i hope i can handle…. see u tomorrow…. do greet me “good morning” k….

i smile….. log off and go bath, then go to bed….

My colleague last day (Part 28)

By andthenhor

next day i go to work as usual.
did not really know how to face ling..
she came in office about 15 min after me, dress very normally and moodlessly..
in a knee lenght skirt and a normal loose blouse.
she did not look at me, did not greet me, and did not talk to me…

somehow i feel uneasy. and go on with some paperwork tat i usually will ask ling to do for me..

after about 20 min in office, i could no longer endure the uneasiness in the office. i took my business bag. and leave the office for the day.

when i left office, i feel a heavy burden off my shoulder. i believe ling have the same feeling…
guess it’s good for both of us to release the tension.

i got into my car, slump back. decide a good place to go is home.
as my wife is not around… i could have a well deserve rest…

but before i start driving, i decide to send out 2 sms.

1- to ling: do we have to be like tat for the next one week?

2- to jeslyn: halo… do u like the gift? hope u like it… with love from aaron; your half bf.

then i put my phone by my side and start driving home….
5 minute pass when i recieve the 1st reply/

jeslyn: yap, like it, in fact i’m wearing now..   thanks so much.
does this sms means she accept me as her half bf..?
i dunno/….
me: glad u like it… u working today?
jeslyn: nope, off day, just woke up..
me: u free? can i date u?
jeslyn: where u wanna go?
me: dating wif u.
jeslyn: now?
me: 1 hour time?
jeslyn: ok lo… wear wad?
me: erm… i bring u outdoor, wear casual lo…

i drive home, change to my tshirt and bermudas.
then i take my digi cam, sunglass, and drive to fetch jeslyn….

me: u ready? i reaching 5 minutes.
jeslyn: ok. cya.

when i reach there, she also just come down…
dress in a khaki bermudas and white singlet, she look so sporty yet cute… with her apple hairstyle…

jeslyn: so wanna bring me where, my half bf? hehe
me: let go to the ….. erm…. zoo?
jeslyn: really? okok, so fun!!

the sky is bright, as bright as our mood and as i take the pie/bke to the zoo, my radio is playing some countryroad song. i sing along to some song as i have this disk with me during long trip to kl. keeping jeslyn entertain and impress and happy..

i open my sunroof, and with our mood so good, i forgotten about my wife and ling and reach the zoo in no time.

when i reach there, i go ahead and buy 2 ticket, and she went to buy a ice cream which we both share.
to me, sharing an icecream is the ultimate itimacy of food sharing.

as she approach me with the ice cream cone in her hand, from about 15 meters away, i realise wad a slim and good figure she have…
can i just fuck here there?
our hand interlock as if it’s 2nd nature to us…
and we went into the zoo…

at the zoo
we go animal seeing, took plenty of photos, took the tram, watch the animal show. go to the farm, feed the horse, feed the chick, play with the rabbits.
go to the reptile area, watch the iguana, snake, crocodile..
we chat, we laugh, we shares drink. and we walk alot… making sure all animal are not miss, we saw the giraffes, elephane, tiger…. i make fun of her… and i know she’s falling deeper and deeper for me…

by the time we finish everything it was about 5 and we are shag…
i decide to go for chill out with her…
before fetching her home..
but not before i have to tell my wife i will be home late as i have some urgent meeting…. (another lie)

we reach the car about 6 pm, and i start driving to mt faber altivo…
jeslyn fell asleep in my car and i drive slowly to make sure she got enough sleep.
myhand was holding on to hers and place on her lap…

the 45 min ride was one of the longest in my life…
and when we reach altivo, i have to wake her up….
she rub her eyes. and we got off the car…

i got a seat by the side overlooking sentosa and the developing resort world.
i sit beside jeslyn and we order some drinks..

we were browsing thru the photos we took in the day(this memory will eventually remain in my pffice drawer till today), my face and hers not more then 10 cm from each other, i could smell her, even after a day out in the zoo, she still smell so good, so womenly… for unknown reason, my 2ic start to wake up…
as we were browsing the photo and laughing away, frm my position i could view her ZG, a loose hole just enough for me to peep in and see her b cup cupped in her seamless white bra.

whenever she reach for her drink, i always almost saw her nipple due to the release of the tight cup. but i never saw it… and it made me even harder…
such a sexy women, wearing so casually and playing peek a boo with me… knn….. buey tahan…

8pm
me: did u enjoy urself today/?
jeslyn: yap.. i did, thanks…
me: u look beautiful with the pendent…
jeslyn: thanks…. i love this double love pendent… so 2 love means.
me: 1 is you… the other is for you to assign who… so who’s the other love…
jeslyn: ok, for now, the other love will be the person who give me this… haha..
i tighten my grip on our interlocked hand.. showing a sign of touch and happiness and approval.

i look beyond her to her top where cabin after cabin of cable car enter the station and exit the station… she turn around too and saw the beautiful litted cable cars.

me: when is the last time u took a cable car?
jeslyn: more then 10 years ago le..
me: wanna go for a return trip?
jeslyn”: haha. u think take plane ahh.. return trip…
i ask for the bill. then i hold her hand as we exit altivo. as we are seated quite deep inside. jeslyn got alot of unwanted attention from the customer of altivo…

we are both afraid of meeting ppl we know, but guess love is bigger then fear… our hand never part, i ignore all stares at her and we took the stairs up to the ticketing counter for the cable car…

no queue.
we board on of the moving cable car. sit side by side facing sentosa. and soon, the door close and we were suspended 150meters above air, supported only by a metel cable, in a enclose cabin. just me and her….

My colleague last day (Part 27)

By andthenhor

we were drinking and happily chatting, trying to release the tense mood i just build uo over the conversation about her pushing my hand away…

me: so being your “half bf” got wad benefit.?
jeslyn: i allow u to pampered me lo…
me: wa… like that bo hua leh…
jeslyn: then u think wad… only my full bf can have wad u thinking of…

as we talk, i realise i’m leaning closer and closer… cannot… must sit back relax… how can my body language show i’m desprate for her? i shifted back to relax in my seat..
then jeslyn ask to go to the toilet… and she leave her little Coach pouch on the seat…

i take the chance, faster take out a little double love pendent i brought from leehwa, (set me back by almost 150 bucks…) and slid it into her handbag..
because of this, i feel guilty and buy my wife a gucci bag… haiz… really broke that month.

soon, she’s back… we continue to talk..

as we talk, more and more ppl are leaving, and i did not realise, they are about to close…
i ask for the bill….
waiter: sir, your bill
me: this pretty lady will settle it…
jeslyn: oie…nono, he will settle…
me: i nv bring wallet leh…
jeslyn: oie…
me: aiya… ok la… dun bully u….
i pass my amex green card to the waiter…
the waiter go and proceed the bill.

i then turn to jeslyn
me: u owe me one favour ahh…
she show me her tounge…. she rejecting the bill is so funny and cute…

we then leave the place….
she walk in front of me, then i put both my hand on her shoulder…
“aaa… half bf can hold ur hand? ”
jeslyn: hana hana…

with out delay, i walk beside her, and interlock my hand with hers…
we walk a long way out to get a cab…. on the way, talking and talking… seem like never ending of topic…
i never try to drift the topic to sex as i already tried my approach earlier but failed… so better take a step back… young and difficult fish to catch…

we enter the cab… this time i manage to place my hand on her smooth tight…
she feel abit tired from the drink as well…. i offer my shoulder to lie on while the cab go to her place first…

we never talk in the cab… thou i feel like fucking her right in there… fuck… endure endure endure…

when reach her place… she alight, i look at her wanting to ask for a kiss, but dunno how to put it…
she saw me looking at her…
jeslyn: yes? something to tell me?
me: erm… no… nothing… reach home sms me lo….
jeslyn: ok…. u sure nothing to tell me?
me: erm.. nothing… take care ahh… rest early..
jeslyn: ok, bye…
door shut in my face…

then uncle proceed to my house..

sms*
me: jeslyn, got something to tell u…
jeslyn: yes?
me: seldom ask u out… u know y…
jeslyn: nope
me: it’s not coz i ok with my wife then i never ask u out… i’m just worried if i ask u out often.. i will like u de…
(decide against using the word love)
and today have proven my thinking..
jeslyn: erm… why tell me?
me: no lo.. just feel like sharing… anyway… got a little gift for u..
jeslyn: gift?
me: left it in your pouch…
jeslyn: ohh… my goddness… did it cost alot?
me: nope… it doesnt.. and even if it does, for u i guess it’s worth it…
from your half bf…
jeslyn: erm… thanks… but i dunno how to reply u now… let me digest then i sms u tomorrow?

i did not reply…. neither did she….
soon, home sweep home…

did jeslyn like me? did she not…
i know she like me… but is she willing to go any further with me then holding hand? this i dunno… and i have to find out…